Out of nowhere.

I am going to be in and out of town for about a week so the Christmas update will have to wait.  I know the fluff writing seems so simple but those posts are the ones that take the longest for me.  I have to think about all the things I don't want to forget and find the pictures that I think you would love.  That writing for me is much more complicated than a good rant or something heartfelt that has been rattling around inside of me for a few days.

It is going to feel like I am going way off track but please bare with me...you'll understand soon enough.

Remember when you were a child and you would start putting one of those impossible 1,678,928 piece puzzles together that was predominantly clouds?  What was the first thing you did after dumping out the pieces and flipping them all over so they were facing up?  I remember perfectly.  I would always start on the border.  I guess it was the easiest because the pieces obviously had straight edges...but it also provided a framework.  It was a good guide for you to use.  It allowed some perspective for the rest of the puzzle to start coming together.

That being said...looking back on my last few thoughts I have shared with you guys it is obvious that I am starting my life over.  I have been given back all these pieces.  Some make sense and some just don't.  I know that they all fit somewhere...my faith, my daughter, my career, my education, my life as a single woman...and that's just scratching the surface.  I have all these things that I want to fit together just right.  To make a perfect picture.  Yet, even with an essentially clean slate and all these pieces I couldn't visualize what things might look like for me.  What life would hold 2 weeks, 2 months, 2 years from now.  I had all these bits that I knew would provide the framework for me moving forward and yet I could gain no perspective on the big picture.

Did you ever have that moment when trying to put the border together?  You look and look (and I pray and pray) but to no avail.  So, not having the one piece you think is crucial, you just start on the big picture...then, presto, it just appears out of nowhere.  I may have had that moment.