Today is the day.

Granny update:  She is doing okay and was supposed to go see her cardiologist today.  The only explanation we have is that her heart rate dropped incredibly low causing her to pass out.  From what I can gather this is a fairly common thing for her (which is a little scary!).  The bad thing is that they can't pin-point why and as a result they have no treatment.  When I know more I will let you know.

On the home front...today is the day.  I have the papers signed, notarized and packaged.  He gets them today and then he gets one week to sign.  I have been sick about this all day.  I am ready to be finished and hope that this is going to be as simple as giving him the papers, getting them back, and getting them to the lawyer.  I know the long run holds lots of stuff like selling the house and rearranging bank accounts...but I think a little finality would go a long way for my tummy ache.  Once the papers are signed everything is basically spelled out and the divorce settlement is basically law.  Yikes, law.

With regards to life after marriage it might just be something I have dreamed of.  Not in the unicorns and rainbows sense...but instead that I will be pursuing some things I never thought I would.  For starters I am waiting to find out (any day now) if I can start work on my MBA the first week in Jan or in the summer of 2010. Either way I am excited about the prospect of having the opportunity to provide more comfortably for V and I.  Had this divorce business not come up I would have been satisfied to make a home for my family.  Now I have a catalyst to pursue a more prestigious degree.  Not only something I can be very proud of, but also something V can take a lot of pride in.  I want to be an example for her that education is incredibly important.  Something you can't avoid in today's world.  It truly is one of the main ingredients for success.

In addition, I have a little something else in the works.  I don't have a lot of details at the moment....just know that I am in the research phase.  My parents make me feel so silly sometimes.  They point out my accomplishments and talents and always want to know why I just don't use them to do something I would love.  So...maybe I will.  Maybe I will be able to support myself doing something fun that I love.  Maybe I can do this life without a boss.  We'll see.  As things start to take a more defined shape I will be sure to keep everyone updated.

For now just know these important things: 1.)V and I are surrounded by unconditional love and support. 2.)Rather than moving forward feeling as though I have been robbed of my life I am choosing to feel like I have been given a new opportunity. 3.)I will be successful.

Crazy how you can boil things down and they seem that simple.  Especially when there is a whole lot of distraction around...